Stories from Then and Now : A journey through memories, moments, and the making of who I am—carved in wood, shaped by water, and painted with purpose.
My First Two Books. 10 Sep 2025
This has been a very fruitful year after almost nine years of laying low on the farmland. Over time, I realised that it is tough when there are things to do, but even tougher when there is nothing to do. Time is precious, and in the last few years much of mine was spent painting art pieces for my own joy. Eventually, the thought of writing a book crossed my mind when someone approached me for help in designing a garden pond, the “right pond,” as she firmly emphasised. That book became The Artquatica Pond.
Before this, I had also felt the absence of true history when I visited a state museum. What I saw there told little of the real past. To seek something more authentic, I decided to visit the Kinta Tin Mining Museum, and that experience inspired me to write a work of historical fiction, The Hearts of One.
When I was writing these books, they were meant only for my family to read. But in the end, I decided to publish them on Amazon. Both books are part of my journey, shaped by my years of persistence and quiet determination, my love for art, history, and the quiet lessons of time. I am grateful that they now live beyond my desk and into the hands of readers, available to all.
I hope you enjoy them, and that in some way they inspire you to appreciate known history that deserves to be retold, not erased, and the enduring value of practical knowledge.
Final Part 5: The Hearts of One – On Location
This is a work of fiction, but many of the events along the storyline are drawn from real places and happenings, described in ways that are logical and realistic.
Together, my wife and I explored places that shaped the story, from a gentle forest stream where Rajah Brooke’s Birdwing Butterfly appeared and settled by the banks, to walking along the quiet lanes of an Orang Asli village.
Even the possibility of a bicycle ride up a sloping road was carefully calculated, so the distance described in the book reflected what was realistically possible.
Some settings were inspired by places that no longer exist. SayangKu Kopitiam and SuanNamSai Restaurant were modelled after restaurants we dined in Bangkok, while The Little Hut Restaurant took cues from The Little House Cafe in Tapah. Though these locations are gone today, they live on in the story.
The art exhibition in Bangkok was based on an actual event held in a hotel in the late 1980s. The eerie encounters were drawn from my time working at a fish farm next to a cemetery somewhere in Malacca.
All these memories and experiences, though shaped into fiction, form the backbone of The Hearts of One. The story blends imagination with the reality I witnessed, honours the places, people, and moments that shaped it, and keeps them alive on the page.
Part 4: Writing The Hearts of One – The Art Story - 8 Sep 2025
This novel is also a story of art. I began painting seriously in 2020 during the pandemic lockdown, and naturally I tried to push my work into the art market. That was when I learned many things. Here in Malaysia, the art scene is small and often feels caught between true appreciation and the chase for profit.
As a pond ecologist, I could not help but see art through the lens of an ecosystem. Artists are like the primary producers, they create and produce art. Galleries act as the first consumers, often reluctant to take on new artists who lack credibility. Then come the secondary consumers, the critics, the auction houses, the media, who inflate art value through reputation rather than the art itself. At the top sit the tertiary consumers, the grand collectors, who trade works at staggering prices, sometimes based on provenance, which is simply who once owned them.
And just like in a pond, there are also decomposers. In art, these are the forgotten works, dressed up as rediscovered, restored, and reborn. Take Leonardo da Vinci’s Salvator Mundi, 'lost and found,' then 'repainted' and 'rebranded,' only to fetch USD 450.3 million. Some may call such rediscoveries remarkable, but are these really just clever manoeuvres of the art market?
In The Hearts of One, the protagonist’s journey into art is not smooth, nor is it the dream that many hold of becoming an artist. It is a struggle, much like the reality many face when they pick up painting later in life, as I did. This story, though fiction, is drawn from such truths.
Part 3: Writing The Hearts of One – The Ghost Story
This month, the Chinese are observing the Hungry Ghost Festival.
In my novel, The Hearts of One, there is a ghost story. It was never too difficult for me to write, though I had to choose carefully which ghost story to tell.
During my early days working at fish farms, I experienced strange happenings on those farms unexpectedly located beside a cemetery. Far from the main road, the silence of the night could be eerie and unsettling. When visitors came, whether in the day or at night, I would guide them with directions like, “Once you spot the first tombstone ahead, turn left, and that will take you to the farm gate.”
A few years later, after that first graveyard farm, I moved to another. This time it was worse, as the road cut straight through a large Chinese cemetery before reaching the farmhouse.
It was on these farms that I faced the kind of spiritual encounters I had never imagined at the beginning. Slowly but surely, they came, month after month, enough to raise the hair on my skin even now when I recall them.
But in this book, I chose to tell only the stories that bring more laughter than fear. The Hearts of One is not a ghost story book, but a work of historical fiction shaped by memories and lived experiences.
Part 2: Writing The Hearts of One – Tin Mining and the Japanese in Perak
I visited the Tin Mining Museum in Kampar several times, not just to trace the history of dulang washing to the great tin dredges that once powered the state’s economy, but to imagine how the miners who became wealthy and shaped society would have faced the harsh policies of the Japanese, especially against the Chinese communities.
As a child, I heard countless tales of fear from elders who lived under Japanese soldiers and their oppressive rule. Those memories, later reinforced by books on the invasion and atrocities across Asia during the Second World War, shaped the backdrop of my story.
The novel begins with a couple fleeing from Japanese soldiers after an unforeseen incident sets events into motion. Japanese dialogue is woven into the scenes, carefully checked for accuracy, alongside research into the ways of administration during the Occupation of Malaya.
In the end, the story found its form, layered with childhood tales, memories, and the fragments of history that revealed themselves as I wrote.
Part 1: Writing The Hearts of One – The Orang Asli Story (Indigenous People of Malaysia) 2 Sep 2025
In my early years, I worked at a fish farm on the edge of the forest along the road to Cameron Highlands. The farm stood beside an Orang Asli settlement, a small cluster of huts they called a Pos. I befriended them, joined their festive gatherings, and followed their hunting trails. I even engaged one of them, a man of few words, as the farm’s security guard. He was a tough fellow who once saved our living quarters by putting out a fast spreading bushfire on his own, without even a drop of water.
The ‘jungle warrior’ in my book The Hearts of One was drawn from his character, a man who lived and hunted in the wild.
Writing this story was no easy task. I spent long hours with my Orang Asli friends to share the plot from my side, to shape the dialogue in their language, and to make sure every detail was right. My wife and I also searched for and observed the Rajah Brooke’s birdwing butterfly, one of the largest in the world, which also found its place in the novel. To strengthen the story, I drew from my own encounter with the elusive goat antelope, the serow, and from joining a feast after it was hunted in the silent forest night.
This book is not just about fictional history. It is about supporting the culture of nature, valuing the precious knowledge of the Orang Asli, and remembering the wisdom that once lived in the forest but now survives mostly in words. Today, the bamboo huts and atap roofs have since been replaced with concrete houses topped with zinc. The days at the forest and farm remain only as memories, and turning those memories into words has been a treasure to me.
The artworks at the exhibition stood in striking contrast—one floor space showcasing vibrant floral pieces, while the next highlighted works of light and craftsmanship. Beyond these curated halls, creativity are all across Bangkok in every direction. Whether in shopping malls, local markets, or even tucked beside street food stalls, artistic expression thrives for those observant enough to notice.
Bangkok is far more than just bars and nightclubs, despite how it's often portrayed. Time may change its people and places, but the beauty of its traditional culture, food, lifestyle, and urban character should never be overlooked.
I came to Bangkok seeking inspiration—to create, to reflect, and to work on my art as I move forward. Art is a journey without end—if you're truly in it, it becomes a way of life.
Painting in progress
17 May 2025. I’ve been travelling to Bali for many years—it felt like a second home in my younger days. I was always fascinated by its well-preserved culture and way of life, making the island feel like a living museum. Across more than a hundred trips, one occasion I particularly looked forward to was Nyepi, the Balinese Hindu New Year, also known as the “Day of Silence.” It’s a remarkable 24-hour period of complete stillness. Even electricity to hotels is cut, no one is allowed to leave their homes or accommodations, and all activities come to a halt. The silence is profound—an entire island pausing in reflection.
What fascinated me most was the eve of Nyepi, known as Pengrupukan, when the streets of Legian-Seminyak come alive with Ngrupuk parades of monstrous effigies called Ogoh-ogoh—the Balinese Yao Guai, or evil spirits. Dances depicting the eternal battle between good and evil, with figures like Barong and Rangda, fill the night with myth, meaning along with loud rhythmic cries and packed performances.. There’s also the Melasti ceremony, a ritual of purification performed by the sea or at sacred springs as in Ubud a day after Nyepi.
I can't help as to keep such memorable experienced, and inspired by their beauty and symbolism, I decided to paint these striking characters and spiritual moments as part of my Bali collection.
Waka Gangga, Tabanan. https://wakahotelsandresorts.com/wakagangga
Royal Kirana Spa, Ubud. https://royalkirana.com/
Last year was tedious—with about 20 trips to Bali and other parts of Indonesia. Last week marked my first trip for the year 2009, and I was happily back on the Island of the Gods… Bali. I tagged along with a friend, Alvin—it was his first trip there.
This visit was more relaxed and fun, especially after a long year-end break in 2008. I managed to catch up with friends like Thorsten, Karl Princic, Pak Agung Yokasara, and Putra. I even bumped into Pak Ariel Ali, the GM of The Kayana. Not bad for a quick but fruitful conversation to strategize the transformation of a simple ‘kopi tiam’ into a 7-star resort. I’ll surely be seeing him again soon.
Waka Gangga Tabanan & Kirana Spa Ubud, Bali
As usual, with Alvin, I made my annual pilgrimage to favorites like The Kirana Spa in Ubud, had tea at Bvlgari, and took a nice tour of the spas at The Ritz-Carlton. Don’t miss the iconic Spa on the Rock if you ever plan to visit. The Ritz-Carlton will be rebranded by April this year—so there won’t be a "Ritz-Carlton Bali" much longer. I also managed to squeeze in a quick visit to Waka Gangga for the yearly salt spray experience!
Back to Work at St. Regis
Back to work… the ponds at St. Regis are more mature now. The fish are still a bit timid—it’s time to start training them to behave like circus performers! The plants have grown wild, bursting back to life like nature in spring. Unfortunately, the weather wasn’t kind—rain poured down all morning, and not much could be done while waiting for it to stop.
Last year, I was in Queens of India for my RM15 chapati. This time, I managed to swallow a RM70 goreng pisang (fried banana). Anyone? Welcome to Bali.
Mr. Sebastian was a tourist in my small hometown—tall, skeletal in appearance, and almost always dressed in white, accented by a black leather belt and polished black shoes. He had a fondness for his camera, clicking away cheerfully whenever we asked him to take our photos. He hailed from the Philippines.
The story of Mr. Sebastian is not one I often tell, but it holds a quiet life lesson. Peace and God’s blessings be upon him. As for me—Mr. Sebastian—I don’t wish to follow in your footsteps. This is a tale not quite of riches to rags, but something deeper. Before life’s end, he discovered joy and contentment within himself.
He was friendly, and the townsfolk adored him when he first arrived. Yet, within three years, I began seeing Mr. Sebastian scraping the town’s filthy drains, working alongside the so-called "invalids" to clean and clear gutters and dump sites. Despite it all, he remained cheerful, always smiling, entertaining the children—though now without his beloved camera.
As he neared the end of his days, he withdrew into solitude, living in a small rented wooden shed, surrounded by the things he loved most: his books, an old piano, and a violin. I remember visiting him one evening when I was thirteen, in 1973. As always, he proudly and joyfully showed me his treasured book collection. Then, he played his violin and tapped on the piano keys, music flowing not from the instruments, but from the happiness rooted deep in his soul.
Is this a story of riches to rags—or perhaps rags to riches?
God bless you, Mr. Sebastian. You will be fondly remembered.
2009 marked my 25th year working wet—with water.
From aquaculture farms to lake management, my passion for challenging water projects, especially those involving fish, has never failed to excite me.
One of the most demanding projects came just last year at the St. Regis Resort in Bali. I was tasked with designing a water filtration system that would keep the ponds crystal clear at all times—without the use of chemicals. The challenge? These ponds were fully exposed to sunlight all day, with minimal shade.
Challenging as it was, we did it. A total of 700 square meters of freshwater ponds, home to local fish, now remain crisp and clear with minimal maintenance—and the owner couldn’t be happier.
Bill Bensley complemented the project perfectly, planting enough palms to make the ponds feel right at home.
Yes... a tropical paradise—by design.
"I slept and dreamt that life was joy.
I awoke and saw that life was service.
I acted and behold, service was joy."
Rabindranath Tagore.
My first university was a carpenter’s workshop.
I was about ten when I began learning to plane, joint, saw, and paint wood. Two kind men guided me—one was partially blind, the other a great artist. My inspiration started there. They were carpenters. My friends. My artistic friends. That was where my art school began. Though I was born with a pencil between my fingers, it was Effendy’s work that truly inspired me. His fine touch—both in drawing and in woodwork—never failed to excite me. From that moment on, the art in me never stopped.
My second university was a proper one.
This time, I was exposed to the world of water, fish, and aquatic ecology—all things that make you wet. Highly technical, but creatively conservative. Here, I learned what it meant to be part of Mother Earth: swimming with fish, stung by jellyfish, thrown into the sea, and helping to produce millions of aquatic babies... My body of science. The other half of my brain.
My third university was pure hard work.
Started from scratch—and still remains a scratch! My business. There’s no rags-to-riches story here, just hard work followed by more hard work. The first ten years in business scraped away all I had learned in the language of science—aquaculture, a highly technical field that demands deep knowledge of the aquatic world. The next ten years leaned into art. Designing. Designing artistic ponds and gardens came naturally—like blood running through my veins. The science and art in me have long blended into one. It’s like sitting on a flying carpet.
Follow my blog as I gradually unveil the experiences that shaped my life—from the past to my travels, from job sites to personal reflections, and more.